If things in life weren't hard, they wouldn't be worth it, right? People are too easily giving up on things because they just want to give in. Not this chick! My husband told me today that I am not as strong of a person as I was when we first met. Keep in mind that this was five years ago...

Five years ago, I was very healthy. I was also in my senior year of college at Penn State University about to graduate and become independent. Five years later, I am not the same girl I used to be. The thing I used to pry myself on has been taken from me, my independence, and right now, I am fighting to make sure I get it back. At least to the greatest extent that I can.

I am not sure he told me about my strength to make sure that I don't get weak on him, or if he really means it. In my opinion, I have only gotten stronger. I make sure that I put up a fight when I have to. I still refuse to let other people's opinions affect the way I live and think. I don't just walk away from stuff that gets to me. I don't know... Have I gotten weak as a person?

I think if anyone that knows anything about me thinks I have gotten weak, they need to tell me how so. They can't just walk away and say "you did." To me, thats an excuse. To me, that means they don't feel as strong as they used to. To me, this is their way of telling me to be extremly difficult. And by being difficult, I don't mean with life, I mean with them...

Hmm. To be strong as a person, or be extremly difficult with them. Life is a constant battle of holding on and letting go. What do I hold onto, and what don't I let go of....